Saturday, November 12, 2016

Delays

Hi everyone,

You might have noticed that I haven't posted anything in what...three weeks?


Unfortunately, sometimes life gets in the way of this blog, and I have a bad habit of just falling off the grid. Rather than let that continue, I thought I would take the time to explain why that is. Some reasons are deeply personal and I won't get into very much, others I will.

2016 has not been a great year overall, despite the release of my book. There has been significant personal problems during this time, and I have also had some professional set-backs in the form of rejection letters. And just when I thought I couldn't be hit with anything more, in came the election results.

I won't get into my political opinions too much-it's pretty obvious on my facebook at any rate. But once the results were in, I am sure many people felt like they suddenly lost their best friend, the big brother who is always was a good person and would always have their back. Now that pillar of strength is suddenly cracked. America might not be such a great neighbor, after all. Maybe they'll be something bad. I have had plenty of pro-Trump supporters explain to me why that is not the case, and they make a convincing argument. But everyone can agree that the world is living in a very uncertain time, and the negativity on facebook is beyond incredible. People are tearing themselves apart. For that reason, I am severely limiting my time on facebook just to avoid it.

I am genuinely trying to avoid a 'woe is me' post, but this has resulted in delays as a result. When this month started it was very hard to get a good night's sleep, and every day was spent either receiving more bad news or worrying about something. Some days it was even hard to get up in the morning, let alone do anything else.

But...I am healing. And so is the world, after receiving the election news. The best way to describe it is going through a bad breakup. Everyone is dealing with it in a different way. Some people will take a long time, others no time at all. Some people are happy, some don't care, others are rioting, others are quietly despairing in their homes. And some people may never recover. Speaking personally, today is the first day I was able to write something new. I have a review video that is 99% completed. I can only dust myself off and try to continue as best as I can. But please bare with me in the meantime.

-Natasha




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